I wish my research area was something about art, or poetry, or design, or music,... something artful, creative, and imaginary. Why do I have such an idea? Because I am surrounded with a wealth of beautiful nature so inspirational and appealing that I can't help being distracted to embrace it with all my senses.
The birds are singing inviting songs, the trees are dancing, the flowers are catwalking on the nature's fashion stage, the breeze is rustling the book in an appealing way, the flower fragrance is overwhelming my senses, the fresh air is caressing my skin, the infinitive blue is soothing my vision, all of them are far too tempting and seducing in front of a me so diligently digging a dark and winding tunnel. No-one would resist to rush out there embracing such beauties and indulge herself. A researcher like me in this climate would like very much to translate those potential strong motives into her research. I am in a good mood, motivated, life-loving, soulful and mindful, but, unfortunately all of the good qualities are being confronted by the reality: my research!!! I am deep in the saying of my supervisor for a PhD student, wrapped compactly in DEAR, Drop Everything And Read! This does not work for me I believe.
The study of the person-in-context relational view of emergent motivation (Ushioda, 2009) speaks much in this situation of mine. Just like a second language learner is not an abstract entity separated from a complex backgound and history and a multitude of characteristics, a me doing research is not a me separated from the beautiful and seducing context of spring in full blossom. The interactive relationship between factors in the multiple system of contexts in which the person inherently belong to makes up her behaviour and the world.
I can't help separating me from this multiple context to drop everything and read! How do I make the motivation emerge? How do I translate the emerging motivation into my behaviour? How do I make all the beauties surrounding me the yeast for the blossom of my research?
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